bel-espoir:

Maybe there are just some things you must go through by yourself. Unable to confide in anyone. Maybe there are just some roads you must walk alone. 

Or, at least not with any other human being.

Lord, help me to rely and seek You during this time. You constantly remind me that You are the only one I should be relying on anyway… 

에휴- 힘들고 햇갈리고 혼란스럽고 지치고 비참해진다…………. 이건 아무것도 아닌데….. 

wow

Do I want to sleep right now because I’m sleepy and tired or do I want to sleep because I want the world to just pause for a minute (and I don’t want to face reality.)

I think it’s a little bit of both. What’s wrong with me????????

“Curse the barren fig tree!

“One of the most intriguing miracles that Jesus did was cursing a fig tree that wasn’t producing fruit. What if we had the courage to do that organizationally?  Every year we try to identify things within our organization that aren’t producing fruit.  It could be our print pieces—they become white noise.  It could be a particular ministry that is simply treading water. It could be a staff member that isn’t producing like they should.  It could be a policy that is outdated.

“For National Community Church, 2012 is the YOP—year of prayer.  Imagine what would happen if our people are praying with specificity, intensity, and consistency.  We’ll start off the year with a 21-day prayer challenge. We’ll turn our small groups into prayer circles.  And we’ll have a regular prayer meeting to seek the heart of God.  Prayer is our #1 priority in 2012.”

–Mark Batterson

Reading about how awesome Servant’s was really makes me wish I could spend time alone with God, like on a mountain top or something.. just me and Him. Conversing about my life, successes and failures, the past, present, and future me and what His plans look like. I don’t spend enough alone time with God lately, and I think that’s why I’m suffering a lot.

ALSO, I really really really really really miss GW and Hope. I miss GBS, I miss study parties in my room and Gelman first floor, I miss eating and cooking food with y’all, and I just miss the community there in general. I want to go back to college!! (Living it up in South Hall 208 in bedroom #1- the bestest room eva, right guys?!?!) No, but all kidding aside, I miss you all so much, it hurts! :(

BUT this is not to say I’m alone. Thank you dear sis, Cecile! You have been like my rock and my constant (Ross thanks you as well btw). Love you so much and I’m so blessed to have you in my life. Get well soon! <3

EDIT: awwwww and as I just finished writing this post, I got a text from someone special! Thank you sweetie for thinking of me <3 <3 this made my day!

off to gettysburg college for the weekend to watch ross’s brother’s football game! first drive by myself across state borders…AH pray for safety please!

here’s my new car (taken from cecile’s AMAZING, NEW DROID!!)

disclaimer: don’t let this parking job that i did in Target’s parking lot cloud your judgment on my driving!

I can’t wait to go home for the long weekend to celebrate mine and my umma’s birthday (and Columbus Day heh)! Ross will be coming up to visit me and my family before he leaves for Australia so it’ll be bittersweet for all of us. Anyway, I’ll be driving back Monday with my car so I’m super excited about that yayy!! No more long and painful metro commutes!

Anyone interested in going to Annandale like every weekend?!? :D Please pray for zero accidents this year haha!